dirt off your shoulder

i've been thinking about music i listen in really, really down times. luckily, there have only been a few times in my life when i need to dive deep into my music for this reason. for gaby, it was one grizzly bear song and one deathcab song on endless repeat. for my grandpa it was the julie dorion and mt eerie album over and over again. for a big break up it was arcade fire neon bible non-stop. i don't know how to feel right now. i can't dwell on a person lost and the memories of them. colin and i can only look to each other and hold each other up. i didn't know how strong of a husband i have until now, so that could be considered a silver lining. so, music-wise, the only thing that seems to sound good and strangely appropriate right now is over-inflated egotistical "i'm the baddest and the best" cheesy hip hop. like kanye's stronger. or jay-z's dirt off your shoulder. lyrically, these songs aren't relevant at all but emotionally they seem to make me feel like us two, together, can handle anything. because we're awesome.